After months of mental and physical anguish I am relieved to have squirmed my way to the finish line of this semester. I don't know how massive the celebration will be for today's victory but I can just see it all now. :) yea... 8) oh yeah.
But what will become of me next year? who knows?! who cares?! I'm not coming back here, and even though i'll miss it ... i'll keep going. That's just the way it has always been. Go somewhere new ... and then move on to something newer.
Now I can work more on this little sleeping problem I have; hopefully that'll be gone by in a few weeks. Then i can get to work and everything is just fine and dandy. Even if it isn't though ... I'll still have something to write about.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Virginia tech
Since the murder spree at Virginia Tech, many colleagues of mine have been asking questions such as: “How would you feel if you were one of the students affected … like your roommate is gone forever or your friend from down the hall was in the shooting?” or “What about if the guy that committed the murder was your roommate?”
Well I want to look at this situation from a different point of view. How would you imagine you would feel or act if you had found out that the child you had raised had just killed a bunch of innocent people at college? Would you feel even worse if you were the one who pushed them into going into college? If you added any stress at all to the guy’s situation … would you feel the slightest bit responsible?
Now there are a bunch of stories about things people noticed that could have prevented the situation if it were addressed early on. Everyone feels guilty for the actions of one. Since the most common thing to do would be to try to cast blame upon someone… do we suggest that it is everyone’s fault… or no one at all?
Well I want to look at this situation from a different point of view. How would you imagine you would feel or act if you had found out that the child you had raised had just killed a bunch of innocent people at college? Would you feel even worse if you were the one who pushed them into going into college? If you added any stress at all to the guy’s situation … would you feel the slightest bit responsible?
Now there are a bunch of stories about things people noticed that could have prevented the situation if it were addressed early on. Everyone feels guilty for the actions of one. Since the most common thing to do would be to try to cast blame upon someone… do we suggest that it is everyone’s fault… or no one at all?
Death penalty survey: my reply
Ms. Hira W. Mughal wrote:
Hello everyone I am doing my Theology Research Paper and i needed a
favor answer a couple questions for me please. Thanks so much Hira
1. Would you allow the death penalty? Yes or No.
1. yes
2. If you answered yes read these two amendments and tell me do you2. I believe the first one is right because it is after a due process of the law so if everything is done within the extent of the law, in the perfect scenario, the people who are wrongfully accused because practically diminutive. In the other amendment, cruel and unusual punishment is not defined and therefore leaves a major threat possible because of the possibility of misinterpretation which could lead further into abuse of the law.
believe they are wrong? Yes or No and Why?
The fourteenth amendment states that:
All persons born or naturalized in the United States, and subject to
the jurisdiction thereof, are citizens of the United States and of the
State wherein they reside. No State shall make or enforce any law which
shall abridge the privileges or immunities of citizens of the United
States; nor shall any State deprive any person of life, liberty, or
property, without due process of law; nor deny to any person within its
jurisdiction the equal protection of the laws.
The eighth amendment states that:
“Excessive bail shall not be required, nor excessive fines imposed,
nor cruel and unusual punishments inflicted.”
3. If you answered Yes is there any reason why you think this way?
3. I think this way because I feel that humans tend to abuse weaknesses therefore creating scenarios that repeat the tragedies that existed in our past in an endless cycle. For example, the fact, that cruel and unusual punishment is not defined, leaves death sentencing to be considered the cruelest legally admissible punishment. But many would consider that the crueler punishment would be to allow the convict to carry a long sentence where he most likely will have to possibly submit to a life of humiliation (through the high percentages of inmate rape) or of fighting (inmate assault).
4. If you were told "If anyone sheds the blood of man, by man shall his
blood be shed; For in the image of God has man been made." What do you
think this means and would change your mind for having the death
penalty then?
4. The quote just shows even more support for the death penalty and I feel that the death penalty should remain where it's at right now.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Racial Conflict
It seems like everywhere I turn, nowadays, its one racial problem after another. Turned on the television, that season 11 of South Park is stirring up controversy. Surfing the internet, too many people saying the n-word (not to mention the popularity of the amazing racist). I can’t even walk into the common area of my dorm without having to here some heated argument involving racist issues. If this all isn’t just a major coincidence I’d call it an omen.
If world war three were to happen in the near future, it wouldn’t be between the great nations of the world, it would be between the races of the world. Everyone wants the supremacy. All I know is that I’m not fighting for it because I’m apathetic to the issue of race. Why does it even matter?
I could remember being a child in elementary school, but neither then nor today could I even tell you what race my class mates belonged to… because who cares? I mean besides the whole cultural cooking days and little events like that, where we tried new food, we had little to no understanding of the concept of race. But now that we “grew up” it’s all just a big problem. It’s time to grow down now people.
Black people do this, White people do that, Asians do the third thing, etc. etc. etc. It’s redundant, it’s ridiculous. Why does it matter where your ancestors came from? … You’ve evolved far enough from that tree already and are developing roots somewhere else. Why do people even argue what race Jesus was? ... If he was any race does that make them closer to god then all the other races? … Does that make them better, more powerful, more favorable in the eyes of god?
If world war three were to happen in the near future, it wouldn’t be between the great nations of the world, it would be between the races of the world. Everyone wants the supremacy. All I know is that I’m not fighting for it because I’m apathetic to the issue of race. Why does it even matter?
I could remember being a child in elementary school, but neither then nor today could I even tell you what race my class mates belonged to… because who cares? I mean besides the whole cultural cooking days and little events like that, where we tried new food, we had little to no understanding of the concept of race. But now that we “grew up” it’s all just a big problem. It’s time to grow down now people.
Black people do this, White people do that, Asians do the third thing, etc. etc. etc. It’s redundant, it’s ridiculous. Why does it matter where your ancestors came from? … You’ve evolved far enough from that tree already and are developing roots somewhere else. Why do people even argue what race Jesus was? ... If he was any race does that make them closer to god then all the other races? … Does that make them better, more powerful, more favorable in the eyes of god?
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Happy Music
My last three journal entries are a series of complaints and grievances. So now that I got that off my chest I want to talk about something positive. I've been listening to some old school music and I got to say... I feel happier.
WHAM!'s "Wake Me Up Before You GO-GO" has had everyone in earshot of me either wince in pain or submit to pure befuddlement. I don't want to tell how many times I've listen to Boy George and the Culture Club sing Karma Chameleon on my MP3 Player but Just the sound of it makes me want to dance like a fool in the rain.
Speaking of rain, Even though I enjoy winter, I'm actually glad that we are approaching the summer. I LOVE THUNDERSTORMS. If you’ve ever seen that movie “without a paddle” you could easily imagine that I’d live in that tree with those hairy women in that forest. While puppies and small children cry and hide from the horrid sounds, I’m happily dancing in torrential downpours to the music of the sky.
I think its astounding how music can evoke feelings and emotions.
WHAM!'s "Wake Me Up Before You GO-GO" has had everyone in earshot of me either wince in pain or submit to pure befuddlement. I don't want to tell how many times I've listen to Boy George and the Culture Club sing Karma Chameleon on my MP3 Player but Just the sound of it makes me want to dance like a fool in the rain.
Speaking of rain, Even though I enjoy winter, I'm actually glad that we are approaching the summer. I LOVE THUNDERSTORMS. If you’ve ever seen that movie “without a paddle” you could easily imagine that I’d live in that tree with those hairy women in that forest. While puppies and small children cry and hide from the horrid sounds, I’m happily dancing in torrential downpours to the music of the sky.
I think its astounding how music can evoke feelings and emotions.
Decisions... Decisions
Well, I've been thinking about my life lately and I feel like I made the wrong decision. I don't feel like I have the discipline necessary for college. Like some people may read that and think “Whoa… college kids aren’t disciplined in the first place” but I’ve become so stubborn … I have trouble pushing myself to do things. I didn’t want to go to college in the first place (well not directly to college I did know I was going to end up here eventually). I guess I’m too easily influenced.
I was all set to go into the Air Force straight out of high school. St. John's was just a last minute decision. No body wanted me to go to the military and my best friend’s mom is the assistant dean here so I made came here. So it feels like I’m only here because I knew someone, even though I had the grades and the SAT scores to get into a lot of colleges. And even with that out of the question I still just wanted something different to say at the high school reunions. I’m not even majoring in something I’m interested in… I’m only doing it because it’s supposed to make me money once I’m done. No I don’t value material possessions or monetary standings but I know other people do and I’ll have to support a family someday … too bad love doesn’t pay bills.
What the hell can I do? I mean … I already chose not to come back here next year. But I have no exit strategy. It’s either go to a different college or go to the military. I’m not going back home. And I don’t really know any ways to just instantly become rich like these people who just randomly quit college on a whim and start up IBM and Starbucks. I have some great movie/novel ideas but you need to know people in the business.
Eh, you live and you learn. I already know the moral of this story, now I’m just predetermined to live it.
I was all set to go into the Air Force straight out of high school. St. John's was just a last minute decision. No body wanted me to go to the military and my best friend’s mom is the assistant dean here so I made came here. So it feels like I’m only here because I knew someone, even though I had the grades and the SAT scores to get into a lot of colleges. And even with that out of the question I still just wanted something different to say at the high school reunions. I’m not even majoring in something I’m interested in… I’m only doing it because it’s supposed to make me money once I’m done. No I don’t value material possessions or monetary standings but I know other people do and I’ll have to support a family someday … too bad love doesn’t pay bills.
What the hell can I do? I mean … I already chose not to come back here next year. But I have no exit strategy. It’s either go to a different college or go to the military. I’m not going back home. And I don’t really know any ways to just instantly become rich like these people who just randomly quit college on a whim and start up IBM and Starbucks. I have some great movie/novel ideas but you need to know people in the business.
Eh, you live and you learn. I already know the moral of this story, now I’m just predetermined to live it.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Learning Environment
Okay there has been a certain something that’s been bugging me for a long time. A really long time. I could remember sitting in some of my high school classes and thinking to myself… wow this is really annoying. Now I find myself in my Computer Information Systems class thinking the same exact thing. This so called “ghettoness.”
Don’t get me wrong, I was raised in all the wrong places … so I “get ghetto” when the situation calls for it. But this is my time! I paid the cost for this education; not to relive high school. It never fails though! I mean when I was in high school, I switch from normal classes to honors level courses to try to escape people that like to “act ghetto.” That didn’t work but I stuck with it anyway. Now I’m paying thousands of dollars to go to this university and I have to sit in class and listen to some girl talking a bunch of crap to a nice teacher whenever she can’t get a question right. Luckily the guy can barely even hear her saying anything but the fact of the matter is there are times and places for that kind of behavior. And an afternoon in Sullivan hall is not one of those.
What’s worse? It’s fueled by other students. I mean, even though most of the class is laughing at her, she thinks that everyone is on her side and she adores the attention. This in itself makes the situation more difficult, because when people feed off the attention, it makes it hard to coerce them to acting properly without lowering yourself to their own level. COUNTLESS AMOUNTS OF TIMES I just wanted to take my laptop and throw it at her and scream and act out until she stopped. But doing so would go against my own moral standing (I would never intentionally cause harm to a female) and would escalate the situation further than it would if we just let her rant. So I just deal with it. Go to my dorm and slap walls. End of story.
Don’t get me wrong, I was raised in all the wrong places … so I “get ghetto” when the situation calls for it. But this is my time! I paid the cost for this education; not to relive high school. It never fails though! I mean when I was in high school, I switch from normal classes to honors level courses to try to escape people that like to “act ghetto.” That didn’t work but I stuck with it anyway. Now I’m paying thousands of dollars to go to this university and I have to sit in class and listen to some girl talking a bunch of crap to a nice teacher whenever she can’t get a question right. Luckily the guy can barely even hear her saying anything but the fact of the matter is there are times and places for that kind of behavior. And an afternoon in Sullivan hall is not one of those.
What’s worse? It’s fueled by other students. I mean, even though most of the class is laughing at her, she thinks that everyone is on her side and she adores the attention. This in itself makes the situation more difficult, because when people feed off the attention, it makes it hard to coerce them to acting properly without lowering yourself to their own level. COUNTLESS AMOUNTS OF TIMES I just wanted to take my laptop and throw it at her and scream and act out until she stopped. But doing so would go against my own moral standing (I would never intentionally cause harm to a female) and would escalate the situation further than it would if we just let her rant. So I just deal with it. Go to my dorm and slap walls. End of story.
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